In all my 17 years of living, this is the FIRST time I have nothing to ask for on christmas. Every year I always had something to beg my parents for: a new laptop, a new phone, an iPod perhaps, or some fancy-shmance designer dress -this year is so different.

This morning, I sat with a cup of tea, munching an apple, and started thinking about what I can ask for this christmas, and I concluded NOTHING. Yes, NOTHING. I can't seem to find anything else to ask for. Sure, maybe a car, an iPhone, something -but none of these really make me happy. It's like, I'm probably just asking for it 'cause EVERYBODY wants it -that's just so hypocritical of me.

Looking back on this past year, I realized that I already have every material thing I need AND want; and should there be anything missing, I can easily purchase it 'cause it's just a missing PART of what I have already -an accessory, so to speak.

I'm not saying that I am totally happy right now. I AM happy but not the jolliest -I mean, of course nobody is EVER happy in the absolute prime, but you get what I mean.

I don't want any thing. Just make me smile & super-glue it on my face -no, I want a GENUINE smile: one that'll last centuries long. Make me feel warm & loved. Hug me, hold me -whatever.

I've had the most wonderful year ever! I have the nicest clothes and shoes, top-class gadgets, a happy family, the BEST of the best of friends one can ever have, regained my faith, achieved more than I imagined, and I'm with THE most AMAZING and WONDERFUL and -gosh, mere words cannot explain it -person EVER. I've had a really remarkable year and that I am just really, REALLY blessed right now. I couldn't ask for anything better.