I am now on the verge of deciding who I want to be after high school. Yes, that's right; I am currently deciding what schools I should apply for in college and what courses I am to take. Choosing a school and a course is not as easy as it appears to be. It's not just merely acquiring yourself application forms from certain universities, filling them out and ticking your course choice; before you actually pick up that pen and begin answering those forms, you hesitate. It makes you wanna stop and think: What good does this school have in store for me? Are their degree programs good? What will become of me should I choose this course? More importantly, WHO WILL I BE after school?

One of the scariest things to do in life is making choices. One choice leads to an event, which leads to another event that may lead to success or chaos, paradise or hell. It's true, what they say: "Life is like a box of See's chocolates." You will NEVER know what you will get. You may have picked up a luscious, smooth, piece of dark chocolate but inside, is a nasty gunk of nougat with caramel; the sweetness is overpowering, its sugary flavor triggering pain on your gums, the nougat sticking all over your teeth. You swallow it, and thank the Lord that it's all over; but the sugary flavor is still there, some bits of nougat are still stuck to your teeth; you can't get it out; your breath reeks of spoiled milk and saliva. Same with life: you decide on what appears to be a good choice; only to find out in the end that that choice you have made was not really as good as it was at first glance.

Upon making a decision, you must first set a goal. WHO DO I WANT TO BE after this? Visualize the person you want to become. As they say, "You get what you expect."; expect yourself to be that person you had visualized. Study hard. Work hard. Keep that image in mind until you finally BE that image. Thing is that these choices we make are the basis of our future. You must take charge and be in control; no matter how hard things get nor how painful life becomes, keep yourself in tact and STRIVE to be that person you dream of becoming. Don't ever let downfalls and failures hinder you from success; instead, let these mistakes be lessons for you to learn. Use them as your building blocks to success. Mistakes are meant to happen; it is embeded in us. But making mistakes does not make it the end of the world. Like the nasty piece of See's chocolate you just consumed, as bad as it came out, you can just wash it down with water, brush your teeth, scrape your tongue and gargle with mouthwash; it may be a long process but at least your teeth are clean and bright and your breath is as fresh as a sweet basil leaf from dear granny's herb garden.

FINALLY!! I just had my 1st week of my final year in high school and already I want the year to end. Pessimistic much? Yeah, well it's all because one: our sections were re-shuffled when it's not supposed to be done (not that I'm not happy with my new classmates; I love them but I am just too attached with my classmates last year); two: I am very unsatisfied with my line-up of teachers. From teachers with obnoxious sweat marks on their clothing, to female mentors in body-hugging, 90%cotton, 10%Lycra, pencil skirts that are not flattering at all, to teachers whose voices and tone of speech have a spell that puts you to sleep in a matter of seconds. I SERIOUSLY need to install a coffee machine on my desk and have a mug with me at all times or else I won't survive my last year of high school. Another reason why I could see my final year in high school go downhill is the fact that our school is being invaded by ignorant, Korean, freshmen who take the seats of seniors in the cafeteria and when repremanded, just gape at you, having no clue whatsoever what you are talking about. Will things be better for me in the coming months? I hope so. Right now I am filling out my UP app form, have yet to acquire and fill-out my ADMU app form, and praying that I pass ALL the colleges/universities I am applying for. I just can't wait to get over and done with all these high school dillemmas.