I can't believe how fast time flies. Only a few more weeks 'til I'm "sweet sixteen" & here I am, a high school junior, out of shape, hopeless with love, & insane. As the day draws near, I come to realize all the things that I would expect as I grow a year older. More pressure is piled on me: geometry, chemistry, world civ, prom, college & a whole lot more. I have to be more responsible & sensible with my actions. More priveleges are handed out to me & yet more responsibilties come with it. But inspite all the things piled on to us, we still want MORE; and just like any birthday girl, we wish for things & thus we have my wish list:
> Faber Castell watercolor pencils
> Nokia 7370
> navy blue polo dress
> Brazil jersey from Adidas
> a bottle of Ralph Lauren Cool

Yeah well that's about it. Sweet sixteen here I come!

This morning Mama Jass, our class hamster just died. It was a good hamster; inspite the fact that it stunk up our teacher's desk, we've always loved the little booger. It was one of the only memoirs of our dear ex-short-lived-homeroom adviser.

Honestly, we never really appreciated the presence of our homeroom adviser. In fact, she annoyed us. Never was a day did we not complain about her & argue with her. I was surprised when her resignation was announced. She was leaving & yet I didn't know if I'm supposed to be happy about it or sad. A feeling of guilt crept up my spine. I recall one of the few days we had with her. We were having a diagnostic test that day & I finished early because I shot-gunned my DT. Out of boredom, I took my sketch pad out w/o permission, & I knew it was illegal, so I doodled away. She approached me, took a look at my sketch pad, took it & said "These are really good." -I was expecting her to confiscate it- "You know, I remember one of my students back in Poveda. She drew just like you. She was very good; intelligent, was top of the class & was class president." -To be honest, this story inspired me to study harder. I can fool around but I have to make sure my grades are high. If her student made it, then so can I.

Miss Jass has left our class, has left our school & is about to leave the country. Her flight is tomorrow morning & now that she's leaving, I'm beginning to realize how great a teacher she is. No teacher has ever appreciated my art the way she has. I'm really gonna miss her inspite all the confusion & unneccessary assignments she's given us.

It's a childhood thing. It's what little girls do when they promise each other stuff. They link each other's right pinky, look each other in the eye, swear on a dream or a goal & say "Do you pinky promise?" & they both agree on it. I remember doing a pinky promise at this old age of mine, 15, with one of my good friends. We promisied each other prom dates by the month of january. I know, very immature & stupid but hey, i'm still a little girl deep inside.

So I decide that I pinky promise myself:
1) Nice tight abs by the end of 2006
2) Dye my hair brown on my birthday
3) Stable at 23
4) Find my soulmate at 27
5) Drive myself to school at 18
and.. i can't think of anymore promises. lol

Well for now I really wish to accomplish all of these. Only a month & a half 'til i'm sweet 16!!! xD

when will i ever find him?? i've been searching all over the place, went up north & down south & yet i still haven't found him.. or maybe i have but then i just never noticed or i just couldn't figure out who he is.. he could be someone i sat with in the car, someone i played badminton with, someone i hung-out with somewhere oh hell i have absofruitly no idea!! i'm 15 going on 16 with a record of NBSB (no-boyfriend-since-birth).. sad isn't it? all my friends have had their own prince charmings, i never had one.. on my birthday, i wish to have finally found him.. haha yeah ok i'm nothing but a mere, immature girl; dreaming over things that are almost impossible to become reality.. *sigh* oh well.. cheers to me, NBSB, single & sucky.. i really wish i'd find him by the time i turn 16.. it's the sweetest gift God can give me.. (i hope God knows the internet.. READ THIS LORD!!!)