For years I've been working so hard just to make you guys happy. I've been trying to study as hard as I can, work as hard as I could, just to somehow reach your expectations. We all know what I've gone through & it was REALLY hard.

All my life I've been working my rear off for you guys to be proud of me, so you guys would actually have something to brag about with your friends, so I could make you guys happy, and lastly so I can pay you back for all that you've done for me. This year I promised to reach your expectations. But as the year progresses, lessons get harder & harder, and it's been really hard juggling all these subjects & priorities all at once. Everything's just so hard for me lately. Everything just seems to fall apart. I've been trying so hard but I just couldn't achieve what you guys want me to achieve.

I'm sorry mom & dad if I'm not smart enough. I'm sorry if I'm not athletic enough. I'm sorry I'm not as good as my other sisters. I'm sorry for being an under-acheiver. I'm sorry for not being the daughter you want me to be. I'm just really sorry.

All I'm asking is a little more help. At least a little phone call from the tutorial place to help me. In the past I've been doing everything by myself FOR myself since I know that no one else would do it for me. Now that I know (or at least I thought so) that there's someone here to help me, suddenly I find myself back to doing things on my own as if I'm living in all alone. I never enjoyed my childhood life & so far I am not enjoying my teenage life. I'm halfway through it & still I am unhappy as can be. I feel alone. I want to go out & have fun but I can't 'cause I've got so many things to do for school -for you guys so you'd actually have something to be proud of. Lately I've been really bad at EVERYTHING. I've been a complete failure. I just really can't reach your expectations & nobody's helping me it's just me all the time. No one WANTS to help me so here I go again doing things on my own.

I guess I just can NEVER EVER make you guys happy, never make you guys proud of having me as your daughter because I am just a dumb, untalented, lonely, ugly, loser daughter and I'm sorry for being like that.