It's been more than 2 months since I moved out of my biological father's "lair" & into my mother & stepfather's home & never in my life have I been so happy! Living here with my mother has been the best experience ever. I've never felt so much love & understanding from my stepfather whom, I now consider as my DAD. It's pure bliss knowing that he & his side of the family ACTUALLY accept me as one of them; as if I came from the same blood line. The down side of this "moving away" thing though is the fact that each & every single time I pay a visit or call my biological dad's "lair", my grandmother would look at me like she's a little girl who's finally found her long lost Barbie doll; then she would hug me & cry. Then comes my father who just never stopped yacking about things he believes I must do (w/c btw, is always 75% crazy & wrong).

I received a phone call this morning from my grandmother telling me that I still have things to get from their place then suddenly my father was brought up. She told me how he found out that I consider my stepdad as my actual dad & that I call him "dad" & how mush my biological father despises this fact. Ok, so he's hurt.. He misses me. They all miss me but hey, it's not my fault I just had to get away from all the craziness they have there, especially my father. It's his fault his wives left him; it's his fault why his only daughter, his only flesh & blood left him. If he wasn't so selfish & obsessed with money, if he knew how to handle things properly & if only his brain wasn't 85% disfunctional, we all would've been with him still. I hate him for being who he is. He always thinks he's superior among all others. He blames everyone else for his downfalls & failures when in fact it was also he himself to blame for allowing the world to crumble down on him & "ruin" his life. Like any other human being, he wants others to love him but then, like some mentally disfunctional person, he wants people to FEAR him as well. I mean who does he think he is? God? If only he wasn't so narrow-minded & stubborn, all these things would never have happened & he never would've had to go through all these things.