Had training a while ago.. it sucked.. haha.. gotta correct my basics.. then after traning, we went to eastwood.. hehe.. saya.. nag percussion freaks kami and guitar freaks {panay "freaks"}.. hehe.. but too bad i had to leave early.. hindi ko naabutan yung movie..
=o(, hehe..
but that's ok.. hehe..

Btw, check this out!.. the intro's creepy!!..

Well.. today was just a regular day.. had lunch w/ the family.. took my sisters to their piano lesson.. went home.. you know.. stuff.. but then tonight was different.. tonight was far from the usual sunday evenings we have.. 'cause tonight was when we (my family & i..) made a video for my grandfather (well.. stepgrandfather in my case..) we found out two days ago that he was dying.. that the doctors have only given him 6 weeks of his precious life.. i grieve for the coming of his death.. i'm gonna miss him.. even if i only get to see him once each year.. i remember the first time we met.. i was seven.. i was scared back then & didn't know how to call him.. later on, i finally had the courage to call him "grandpa".. i still remember that day when he taught me how to play cards (go fish & war to be specific..) first few games he'd let me win 'til i get warmed up then he'd play THE game.. i'm gonna miss the way he says "Why you!" to my sister and runs after her in that really unique & funny way of his whenever my sister goes "Mugoogagaga!".. i'm also gonna miss those antics of his.. now i know where my dad got HIS antics from.. i'm also gonna miss the way he tells a funny story.. he would laugh in the middle of the story.. sometimes he just kept laughing that he just never finished the story.. & we all just laugh.. i'm also gonna miss those card playing moments we had.. the way he calls me "honey".. the way he hugs & kisses me.. i'm really gonna miss him..
i love you & i'll miss you grampa!..

i'm still sick and i really hate it.. last thursday i was really weak.. yesterday i couldn't breathe through my nose.. last night i was throwing up.. i even went to the doctor today.. he said that the reason why i was throwing up last night was because my body desperately needed to excrete the phlegm from my body.. i don't wanna be sick anymore!!!.. i WANT to train .. i HAVE to train.. i miss training.. i miss playing.. and i miss my teammates.. oh god i need to sweat (as in work-out.. TRAIN for instance..).. i need to improve.. and lose 5 pounds.. i want to lose 5 pounds.. i need to jump higher too.. i really really wanna jump higher.. so that means, doing squats, lunges.. doing water therapy/diet.. jump rope.. oh wow.. i need to do alot of stuff..

hope i get better by tomorrow so that i can train on monday..

[wish me luck!.. ]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST BEST BUD MON!.. tisoy tanda mo na!.. but don't worry 'cause 5 months from now i'll be the same age as you.. haha!..

a brief background on this..we've been best buds since we were babies.. we've been doin all sorts of crazy stuff since little kids.. we were the "batang kalye's" of hillside lane.. we watched each other grow into the individuals that we are today.. we've shared our best & worst moments.. we've shared our tears of joy & pain.. we're like.. brother & sister..

tsong i miss yooo!!... i wish you all the best 'cause you're the best!.. haha.. miss yah!.. take care!..

i woke up this morning with a sore throat & stuffy nose.. it sucks.. i had sniffles yesterday & now i have colds.. i went to the gym a while a go & i was soo weak.. i couldn't move properly.. i felt sick & weak.. i had a hard time breathing & i was like, dizzy most of the time.. i went home feeling unusually tired (considering the fact that i didn't work as hard as usual) & hungry.. i feel sick.. gosh.. i hope i get better by tonight.. i can't train tomorrow like this.. i'll die.. *sigh..*

We have a new pope!.. hah.. labo.. anyway.. i had training this morning.. man was it tiring.. (it's always tirng.. haha!..) we did leg pushes, ladder excercises.. crunches, sprints, blocking drills.. the harvard.. grabe pagod.. plus the fact that i was still so sleepy.. i slept a bit late last night.. was reading "Gossip Girl".. cool book actually.. haha.. by the way, last night, my stepdad, my mom & i ate dinner out.. after eating, we decided to stop by Power Books (that was when i got "Gossip Girl") and guess who we saw there.. DR. R!(i wanna keep his identity private.. ü,) yeah.. he's my uber cute ortho.. fortunate for me, when i had braces, i couldn't pay much attention to the pain whenever he tightens my braces.. i just stare at him.. wooh!.. gwapo!!.. haha.. moving on.. my mom & i saw him with this other guy with spikey hair.. they were at the modern day (or something like it..) section & guess what book they were looking at.. they were looking at this book about same-sex marriage.. yes my friends.. the gorgeous ortho is fucking GAY!!.. waahh!!.. my mom & i moved as fast as we can to the other end of the store & we were laughin our asses off!!.. haha!.. *sigh..* oh well.. that's it for now..

later!..

I'm depressed.. confused.. sad.. mad.. upset.. heck!.. i've gone insane already.. please help me.. it hurts.. but i know i shouldn't be hurt.. 'cause i have no valid reason to be.. 'cause i have no right.. i don't know if i still feel for it.. it's like.. there's something i missed.. & i wanna have another chance of it & make sure that i don't miss it again.. make sure that it's fulfilled.. but i know that that would be impossible.. there's no chance at all.. *sigh..* i just wish that something similar comes around.. giving me a newer chance.. i wish that things would be better this time.. i wish that.. i won't be fooled anymore.. it's ok that i get hurt every once in a while.. it's part of it.. but i just wish that when it comes.. it would be something good to remember when it leaves (and i hope it doesn't..)

I got tired of "running".. so i changed it to a more fun song.. like it?.. haha!.. i really wanted to put "Good Kind" by the wreckers as my background music but i couldn't find it.. pff.. bummer.. oh well.. haha..

later!..

by the way check out punk-o-matic!it's sooo cool!!

i was up late last night.. i couldn't sleep.. haha.. don't ask why! hahaha!.. well anyway.. i was awakened by my phone (stupid froggy tone..) then i checked the time.. it was then that i realized that my family & i are going somewhere.. well actually i didn't know where.. but i knew we were going.. somewhere.. haha!.. moving on.. the next thing i knew my stepdad was yelling "Justine!! 15 minute warning!!".. i rushed.. i fixed myself up as quickly as possible.. (i can't believe i managed to take a shower in 5 minutes!! haha!.. )& ran downstairs for breakfast.. i was only able to take like.. i guess 5 bites then my sister comes up & sweetly she goes "Justine.. we've been waiting in the car for weeks.. can you please hurry?.. Thank yooooooo!!" with a big smile on her face & that innocent look on her eyes.. you'd easily fall for the sweetness in her face.. but i'm telling you.. she may be an angel on the outside.. but inside.. she's like the female dennis the menace to the 10th power.. haha!.. well anyway. we took a long, wild & crazy drive to cavite.. yes.. we went to cavite.. to this place called.. eagle ridge.. yeah.. & we stayed there from 11am 'til 5pm.. & man was i dying there.. there's nothing to do there.. no decent internet cafe.. although the swimming pool was gorgeous.. but i didn't swim.. nor did i stay outdoors.. i stayed inside the airconditioned building of the resort.. i stayed indoors 'cause it's just too hot outside.. fortunately my parents agreed that i stay inside the whole time.. but only in one condition.. that i must watch my sister in the playroom.. yes.. i had to stay in a small, cramped up playroom filled with little, wild, scary-monkey-like kids for 4 hours.. it was awful!!.. so anyway.. 5 pm strikes & finally we're going home!!.. haha!..


man it feels great to be home.. haha!..

I changed the song.. haha.. i got tired of "you get me".. haha.. =oD, so anyway... i so love this song by no doubt.. i don't know why but i just do.. haha!.. and man i could relate to it.. well in a way.. it's like.. i just wanna run.. run as fast & as far as i can.. run &; stay away from things.. away from my problems.. away from my miseries.. away from all of it.. and literally just run cause i haven't worked out in 3 days.. haha!.. =oD,

later!..

I'm feelin a bit better now.. it's not as bad as yesterday.. in fact it's actually better.. haha!..

well anyway.. i had a pretty good day.. well.. cause all i did was sleep & watch dvd's.. haha!.. =oD, but.. still.. i couldn't eat as much food.. but anyway.. yeah.. i feel better now.. hehe!.. =oD,


by the way.. my dad got my report card already.. haha!.. and he said that i've done a good job with my grades & that i should keep it up.. hah.. i don't believe him.. honestly.. i think i should work harder for the next school year 'cause i don't study.. at all.. well ok maybe i do but.. i'm such a crammer!.. so anyway.. sinusumpa ko sa bagoong na next school year, i'm gonna study harder & give my best in school & NOT cram anymore!!.. =oD,

I hate this day.. i can't do anything!!.. i can't train.. i can't go to the gym.. i can't go to my guitar lessons &.. I JUST CAN'T GO ANYWHERE BUT AROUND THE HOUSE!!..
damn.. kainis talaga.. right now i should be training.. probably doin some conditioning or drills or something.. but no.. i can't.. 'cause i'm stuck at home!.. stupid tummy ache..

you know that thing when you realize that you really like someone & yet you don't tell anyone about it.. it's you & ONLY you who knows about it.. not even your friends know about it.. & then suddenly it's that person that you really like who finds out straight from you 'cause of some internet prank?.. it's really embarrassing.. but surprisingly.. that person didn't even act differently to me when he found out.. surprising for ME.. i didn't even act different whenever we talked.. it was as if nothin happened.. i was surprised at myself 'cause i didn't get mad, freaked out nor panicked.. i just stayed cool.. i would've denied it.. but there's no point in doing so.. knowing the fact that it happened already.. i'm surprised at him.. 'cause he didn't make me feel uncomfortable when we talk.. he was the same person i saw even before he found out.. he made me realize that everything's ok.. that it's fine.. no biggie.. oh well.. i'm just really thankful for how he reacted..
you know who you are.. thanks man.. ,

went to the dentist a while ago.. i'm soo happy!!.. i got my retainers out!.. sorry if i seem shallow but it really means a lot to me.. haha!..
oh well..
let's play na lang... hehe!..

we went to the la mesa dam kanina.. on our way there i was expecting the place to be really fun with tons of things to do.. i thought it was a place with a nice cool breeze & stuff.. but when we got there.. DAMN!.. ang init!!!.. and there was absolutely nothing to do there.. i went home agad & i left my family there.. i got home & ate & stayed in a nice cool room.. doin lots of fun stuff like watchin dvd's playin ps2 & stuff.. moments later my dad calls me and said that i made the right decision.. it was soo hot daw there & ang; boring.. my sisters were complainin daw & stuff.. hah!.. buti nga!.. lol!..

i'm so mean. hahaha!.. oh well.. their bad.. haha!..

the ICA-MC luau's over.. all my teammates had to go back home.. & now i'm left.. bored.. lonely.. at home.. surrounded by people i can't even talk to..

the whole day i had to deal with my lola who's.. MY GAAAD!!.. KULIT KULIT!!!.. she's unbearable.. she drives me nuts!. yung tipong i'm right infront of her inside the kitchen & she goes "ay andito ka na ba?.. ha?".. parang ako.. "DUH lola.. i'm right infront of you.. where else do you think i could be? the mountains?.. sulu?.. iraq?..".. pero hindi ko naman sinabi sa kanya straight na ganun.. it's too harsh.. so i just smile & say "opo lola.."

*sigh..* right now, my whole family's out.. my parents are off to this couple's night party thing.. & my sisters are @ their friend's house, playing.. & I am STUCK at home.. alone.. with my lolo & my ever unbearably kulit lola..

*sigh...* later!..

first of all, thanks teki & ash for introducing blogger to me.. it's WAY better than xanga.. haha!.. =op,

it wasn't really a luau of mc & ica.. it was actually a farewell party for the seniors.. haha.. grabe super saya.. we were up 'till 2am!.. it was so much fun.. & yet very sad & emotional at the same time.. we have to say goodbye to the blue batch '05.. i couldn't really express my feelings to you guys last night so eto na...

Osang...
i will miss you talaga!!.. yung mga bloopers mo & stuff.. hehe.. i'll never forget those.. lalo na yung time na nahihiya pa ko sa team.. alala ko sabi mu sakin.. "ano ka ba!.. wag ka nga mahiya-hiya dyan!.. walang hiyaan sa team!".. i really felt welcomed 'cause of that..

Viene..
mamimiss rin kita!!!.. lam mu.. si ellice naiiyak kc nung nalaman niya na aalis ka na for college, nalungkot siya.. favorite ka niya eh.. pano naman kc.. ang baet baet mo sa mga bata.. kung sa bagay mahilig ka nga naman talaga sa mg bata.. hehehe.. tapos hindi ko rin makakalimutan yung mga dance steps mu like yung drop it like it's hot mu.. lalo na yung lean back.. haha!.. =oD, and there's one thing na sinabi sakin si viene that inspired me.. "jus, volleyball ka parin hanggang 4th year ah.. para sakin.." 'cause just when i was about to give up.. she gave me the urge to push through with what i really want..

Jo.. "omg" jo.. haha.. hinding hindi ko malilimutan yung mga hirit mu.. mga expressions mu.. haha.. Jo, kahit lagi tau magkaaway, mamimiss parin kita talaga.. alam mo, kahit madalas mo ako tinatarayan, madalas, nare-realize ko na shux oo nga naman jo.. parang ganun.. gets?.. tapos yung pag sa training tinatarayan mo ko, you may not know it pero it helps alot kc kung di mo ko tatarayan hindi talaga ako gagalaw sa court..

love you guys!.. i'll never forget you all.. &.. thanks for everything.. kahit isang taon lang napagsamahan natin.. thanks..